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how am i going to be an optimist about this?
[Almost as soon as the trial lets out, Tarrlok kind of... tears off to the kitchen, because he's mildly concerned that he's going to experience an adrenaline crash before he even starts cooking, and so he begins! He starts on some tea, marinating some beef for kebabs... but he feels like he's forgetting something...
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OH SHIT. HE FORGOT TO PUT NOTES OUT OKAY FUCK HANG ON LET HIM REHASH SOMETHING HE THOUGHT WAS FUNNY AND SHOVE IT UNDER PEOPLE'S DOORS BEFORE ANYTHING BURNS]
FOOD IN EAT PLACE
[okay whew he makes it back to the kitchen. And so does Yuri at some point, actually! So... Tarrlok will be getting kebabs ready for everyone, since he was hungry for them, Yuri confirmed, and Cabanela said he'd have whatever he'd have. Speaking of, Cabanela shows up to make some chicken soup! And Yuri makes curry, teriyaki chicken, and steamed vegetables. So there's a little something for everyone. The food that gets put out isn't super fancy, but it's nice, and there's tea just like Elda wanted.
So have at, then!]
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OH SHIT. HE FORGOT TO PUT NOTES OUT OKAY FUCK HANG ON LET HIM REHASH SOMETHING HE THOUGHT WAS FUNNY AND SHOVE IT UNDER PEOPLE'S DOORS BEFORE ANYTHING BURNS]
FOOD IN EAT PLACE
[okay whew he makes it back to the kitchen. And so does Yuri at some point, actually! So... Tarrlok will be getting kebabs ready for everyone, since he was hungry for them, Yuri confirmed, and Cabanela said he'd have whatever he'd have. Speaking of, Cabanela shows up to make some chicken soup! And Yuri makes curry, teriyaki chicken, and steamed vegetables. So there's a little something for everyone. The food that gets put out isn't super fancy, but it's nice, and there's tea just like Elda wanted.
So have at, then!]
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[/cue inappropriate laugh track.]
I mean, I was happy for both of you, but how did the calling you mom thing even start? Even adopted kids take a little time to warm up, I thought.
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[ But from Elda's tone, she's not going to murderously silence Rin (as Rin knows she's well capable of) as much as just hold out a claw at the girl's face for a long moment before she relents and exhales. ]
... That fool of a girl never had a mother. I'm nice to her for a month and she just lets it slip at an emotional moment. In truth, it began with her wishful thinking.
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"...That fool of a girl never had a mother."]
...She told me about her mother and father a few weeks ago, when I was braiding her hair. Back then, she sounded so wistful for a happy family like mine—a mother like mine—that I didn't haven't the heart to elaborate more.
It must have been love she craved, more than anything.
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[ Her fingers curl into a fist and then uncurl, flexing outwards.
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[Rin considered Sayaka her friend, but she knew she couldn't help her in the same way she could Shirou. But that was okay, because she knew Sayaka had so many people in her corner. Those two in particular.]
She said things about herself that frustrated me sometimes, but I could tell how much happier she was with you.
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She'd only just begun to! I was just getting started! She--
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She's not gone for good just yet. You can still see her!
[They're the ones who said they'd bring everyone back, right? That means they can't talk like the dead are gone for good.]
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[ And she... she couldn't do anything. She was sympathetic to the murder at the end, or at least reigned in her hatred? She... She... ]
I can be permitted to mourn some!
[ Because she...
She failed her. ]
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I should have been there. Been faster.
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Why weren't you?
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[ And she's going to stand now. She can't be in this infirmary any more. ]
1/2
And then Elda rises. Is that the end of the conversation, then? Rin watches while saying nothing, and supposes it is.]
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So.
SHRUGS. ]
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... Then she's going to be slowly, tiredly, heading back to her room. She's getting something out of there after having played piano for some time to decompress further, and...
By now she's reading Sayaka's note. ]
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"I've always really admired you, Tohsaka-san; you really do have a way with people that even I don't, and I don't think I ever really got to say that I appreciated that about you."
Reading those words privately, Rin bites her lip and folds the letter away, intending to take it back downstairs. It's so strange Sayaka would say that about her, when those are the very words she could have said to the older girl herself.]
Honestly, I envy your ability to touch people's hearts...
[Yes. She'd say it just like that if she could. Will someday, maybe. Wiping her eyes, Rin doesn't let herself cry as she exits the stairwell. The kitchen is closed by now, so she has to take the long way around walking back to the dorms, instead of cutting straight across.]
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... It's terrible, it's stabbing her over and over again with every step. It's in no way preparing her for what she needs to do next, in order to really close the book on everything that has happened today and everything that she promised today.
She didn't slap Kyrie. Sorry. Sorry SORRY...
" For the first time in years, I felt alive. And I'm thankful--so, so thankful--that you gave me that chance. Thank you so much, for allowing me to live, and encouraging me to live to my fullest. I think I was finally beginning to understand you, clearly. "
... yes, begun. She's only just begun. She's --
dead.
She's dead. ]
You stupid... stupid girl.
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With the blanket bundled in her arms, then, she makes her way back through the dorms.]
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... Oh.
There's Rin. ]
Hah, of course you'd still be out.
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Yeah. I'll be making it a habit from here on out.
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[ she wishes she had seen Kyrie. that whole trap was...
She grips the notes a little tighter, crumpling the corners. And she sighs as she makes to try to let go of her sorrow, anger, ... anything?
she doesn't know what to do with her face. But she's going to intend to walk past Rin. ]
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What's that supposed to mean?
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[ Inhale, exhale. Don't... cry. Don't rage. Don't...
She doesn't even know what she's doing other than walking to the incinerator, still rereading this stupid note. ]
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